I AM…

“An affirmation opens the door. It’s a beginning point on the path to change.”

Louise L. Hay

Two months ago, I would have NEVER looked into making affirmation beads. I wasn’t even sure I understood what the definition for affirmation was. I came across an instagram post about a mindful practice that some other women I know through loss had done at a retreat I was unable to attend. After seeing pictures and looking at Nichole Rae’s website, I reached out to schedule my own “Art of Daily Practice” session.

“Art of Daily Practice is a collection of practices to connect you with your present self, inspire a daily practice, to bring inspiration + healing + guidance into your life.”

-Nichole Rae

I don’t want to get into all the details, because that would spoil your session when you choose to schedule one, BUT, I will share a few pieces from my individual session.

For-Give & Release

“The For-Give & Release practice gives love a way in to what you carry, to what is heavy in your heart and mind. It gives you a way out when you choose to for-give. When you give the love a way in. When you choose with your free will to declare you want a different way, even if it’s a mustard seed of faith, belief, trust- it is enough for love to take the lead. When we choose to for-give and recognize that the thought, belief, experience, memory, judgment, pain we carry is in our minds – at a thought level, we can give the power of love a way in to open the space for healing, guidance and understanding. These are things you most need. When we for-give, grace and compassion arrive, clarity and truth show up. The path is being illuminated.”

Artist Nichole Rae

This part of the practice really gave me some anxiety. I wasn’t sure where my mind would go and I wasn’t sure I wanted to bring all of my guilt and other emotions to the forefront and really face them head on. If I wrote them down, that made them more real.

My thought process was that of, “if I’m paying for this session, I might as well get as much out of it as I can”. Not a positive one, right? Well, turns out the atmosphere was very calming and serene. To my surprise, when Nichole started talking about the process of my session, I began to cry. I couldn’t control the tears. It was then that I had a sense of peace come over me. I felt that this was where I needed to be at that moment, and because of that, I chose to take in every piece of information and suggestion I was given and really apply it.

I had difficulty putting my pen down when it came to the For-Give & Release part of my session. I guess I didn’t realize how many feelings, situations, people, etc. I had to find a way to for-give and let love find a way in.

“I AM” Affirmations

“The action or process of affirming something or being affirmed”

When Nichole told me I would be writing down 108 “I Am” Affirmations, I laughed. There was NO way I would be able to come up with 108! That is so many!

To my amazement, I came up with 108 in a short amount of time. Some of them were duplicates, but she said that was okay. The next step was picking out my beads. She taught me a “decision-making exercise” that I had never heard of before. I used this when choosing my beads. I was extremely surprised when I chose black beads because that was not a color I could have imagined I would choose. It seems so dark to me, and I wanted my practice to feel light and positive. When I continued to go back to the black beads, she looked up the meaning behind the “lava stone”.

Lava stone is a grounding stone that strengthen’s one’s connection to Mother Earth. It gives us strength and courage, allowing us stability through times of change. It provides guidance and understanding in situations where we may need to “bounce back”. A calming stone, it is very useful in dissipating anger.”

Another stone I gravitated towards was White Quartz. “This stone has the meaning and properties to enhance the daily happiness feeling. It is a gemstone to hold the energy of bright light. It will change your constitution to easily attract the positive events. It will help to generate a chain of happiness.”

Once I had all of my beads selected, it was time for me to lay them out on the bead board. I was halfway done laying out my beads when I picked up a white quartz and it felt different. It had a texture to it that the others did not. My first initial thought was, “this bead needs to be switched out.” I asked Nichole what that could mean and if I could switch it out. She said I could, but to look at my numbered affirmation first and see if it has any significance to me. When I read that numbered affirmation, my jaw dropped. The affirmation had to do with my relationship with God, which was definitely significant to me at that very moment. I decided to keep the textured bead.

The very next white quartz bead I picked up was the exact same thing!! Two in a row! How crazy is that? When I looked at my numbered affirmation for that bead, it had to do with my relationship with Ellis. More importantly, it was an affirmation that I am a “good mother”, even though I couldn’t save him. I saw this as significant and kept the 2nd bead.

When I shared this with Nichole, she asked if Ellis’ personality has shown up anywhere in the past couple years. I immediately thought of his 2nd birthday and the lantern fiasco we all experienced in our backyard. Those of you who were there know exactly what I’m talking about. If you don’t and would like to know, just ask… I’d be happy to share πŸ™‚

This immediately put me at ease with my practice and what I was doing. I knew that Ellis was there with me, and he was showing up in a way to put a smile on my face. I cannot tell you how much I appreciated his one-of-a-kind personality in that very moment <3.

The remaining beads were predictable in that I didn’t run into any other textured beads or stories of how Ellis was present. When I had finished, my next task was to put each bead on my string, while saying each affirmation silently to myself. Nichole had asked me if I wanted to make my own tassel, or if I would like her to make it. I chose for her to make it while I affirmed each bead. Out of nowhere, her hand flew up and she started chuckling. She proceeded to keep working, so I did as well. Later on, she told me that she had tied thousands of knots, and for some reason, the knot on the tassel had “jumped” or “moved” and she could only contribute that to Ellis’ personality.

When my necklace was finished, I was in awe of the final product. I loved the colors and knew that I had made these, but more importantly, I had worked through some very emotional pieces of my journey to get to where I was at that very moment. The fact that Ellis showed up in multiple ways was the icing on the cake πŸ™‚

I was incredibly proud of myself and my affirmation beads. The next step was to “affirm my beads” by finding a time for myself to sit in silence. I was then to touch each bead and say my affirmation out loud. When I was finished with all 108 beads, I would then write down all of my multiple affirmations. I would glue this page onto the front of the candle she gave me. I then was told to light the candle Nichole had given me. This would allow me to “affirm” my beads. Once my beads were “affirmed”, my practice was over. Over in the sense that my affirmation necklace was made, but really my journey was just beginning.

I am so grateful for Nichole Rae and my one-on-one session. I would recommend this to whoever feels they could benefit. There are so many aspects of our lives that we can allow to “let love in”.
Nichole allows that opportunity.

If you are interested in scheduling your own daily practice with Nichole, click on the link below. You will find her website and contact information as well as additional information on types of practices. I did a one-on-one session, and I would highly recommend it!

http://www.artofdailypractice.com/

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