When the important dates creep up on you…

Two years ago, September 25, 2016, I found out I was pregnant. I was in absolute shock over it. I remember talking to my sister on the phone as I was buying the pregnancy test and saying, "there's no way I'm pregnant"... I had zero symptoms. With my other boys, I knew right away because... Continue Reading →

Weighted Birth Bears – What & Why?

A weighted birth bear was never something I had heard of much less something I thought I would long for. Until we couldn't take our precious baby, Ellis, home with us I found myself longing to hold my 6lb 10oz son, my perfect angel, with a desperation I had never known before. We spent 22... Continue Reading →

What happened to my heart?

After Ellis died, my existence has become something I don't recognize. It's so incredibly hard to explain, but I truly feel like there is a huge hole in my heart. I feel it when I start to have a panic attack, my heart is so heavy, and I feel it when I talk about Ellis.... Continue Reading →

How Can I Help?

I have been told by many people that after Ellis died, they so badly wanted to do something, but didn't know what. I get it. Trying to help a family member, friend, coworker, or acquaintance after they have lost a child (or someone close for that matter), is so incredibly hard and uncomfortable... but you... Continue Reading →

Dear Ellis

I cried myself to sleep last night... missing you. Knowing that you would be 16 months today... September 7, 2018. What would your personality be like? Would you be walking? Would you be saying "mama" and "dada"? Would your hair have turned blonde already? How many teeth would you have? Would you be as chubby... Continue Reading →

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